Hello,im 16 and is living in an asian developing country(cambodia) and have never had sexaul intercourse or anything at all,this may sound crazy to most people but i might go insane if i dont ask anyone at all,please bear with me .
I might have some type of OCD and dysthymia.

I have a friend that her mother is rumour to be hiv positive.6-7 weeks ago ,that friend pierced her ears and i was stupid enough to went and touched that pierced hole and she said that there were serous fluid on her ears while my hand was on her ear!! i stomped home and washed my hands,there were no injuries on my hand s and fingers but there was a small peeled skin near my finger nail.i didnt care much at the time.

3-4 weeks later,i had flat red rash on both my legs that looked like 3-4 inches leg rings (like socks but there wasnt any on my feet)for 3-4 days and it itched quite abit,i had never had rash once before,the thought of being infected with hiv keep appearing in my mind,i was scared and paranoid,i went to my mother who is a health care worker and a midwife and told her the story. She said that there was a possibility of me being infected. I was paranoid and anxious enough to make me called and asked that friend whether she was hiv-positive or not. She said that she wasnt and got angry with me for a whole week and she said that if she was she wouldnt be alive today and she wouldnt dare talk to people (does that mean her mother is really hiv positive?). I felt at ease for about a week.

I started to remember that one time my mother told me that while she was delivering a baby,the patient's blood got into her eyes and she didnt know whether the patient was hiv positive or not,here came another paranoid thought,what if i got infected from my mom cuz we are really close, i have acnes on my face and my mom's hand is very dry,one of her finger has peeled skin and blood and even warts on it due to overusing soap and detergent and there was that one time that she got so severely ill that she could barely speak due to sorethroat,her voice almost couldnt be heard even when she tried her hardest and it was also the first time she was ever like that.i keep on thinking abot the "what if " questions. And again,i thought,lots of patients mistook their early hiv symptoms for normal diseases and didnt care about it,what if my friend and my mom also didnt know,i got super paranoid,what if i transmit it to my family?

The last 4-5 days,Ive been having a mild headache that feel like morning drownsiness and the headache u feel when u dont drink coffee,mild diarrhea (once or twice a day)and mild muscle cramp that came out of nowhere,i have chapped lips even though i drink almost 3 litres of water a day,i have dry and peeled ankle skin that i'd never had before (no,it's not ankle cracks or fissures),last night i woke up to the itch on the left side of my neck,scratched it and felt buring sensation for about 5-10min before going back to sleep.
This really sounds so stupid and embarrasing but im just this stupid and weird.

I told my mom that i want to have a blood test,she told me to wait for another 4 months for the test to be completely accurate,that is just too long ,i might go and commit suicide before that.
Please help me. Lots of thanks.