Hello. Over the past couple of months I really don't feel like myself anymore. Softball, soccer, art, music, and many other activities that I used to love no longer interest me. All of the excitement in things has died away. I am constantly agitated and I feel panicked when I have to play a sport, talk in front of people, or do things that never used to bother me. I am also so tired all of the time and all I want to do is sleep. In the morning I just lie in my bed and have to force myself to get up and go through the motions of getting ready and going to school. I worry about the littlest things. When I am with my friends or family there is a temporary break in how I feel, as if it is a distraction. When I am hanging out with friends, I do feel happy sometimes. I really try to go out and participate in things, smile, and be positive. Yet, I always feel out of place and the negative pushes its way in. When I am by myself I often start crying for no reason and I get a sort of ache in my chest. My mind spins from one bad thought to the next. Every problem seems to come up and I dwell on every detail of everything that is wrong. I always feel as if I can't do anything right and am so behind in every aspect of my life in comparison to where I used to be. I should feel happy so much more of the time but I can't stop feeling as if everyone is unhappy with me and looks down on me. Why do I feel as if there is something bad happening a lot of the time? How can I stop feeling so sad and disappointed especially with myself? Also my head often hurts and I get head flashes a lot of the time when I stand up from a sitting or lying position. I don't know if that is totally unrelated. I don't want to talk about how sad I feel to my family or friends because mosh people view me as a kind, bubbly person. Yet, it's so hard to try and stay positive.