Hey There! My Name Is Jessica,Im 33yrs Young, From Lancaster,

Hey there! My name is Jessica,Im 33yrs young, from Lancaster, SC. I've been prescribed Xanax & adderall for about 8 yrs. For about 5 yrs I've been going to a methadone clinic. I really didn't need to join, I wasn't addicted to anything... I was just taking hydracodone, oxycodone, and some OxyContin. My ex boyfriend was so greedy, he didn't give me enough to get addicted. Anyway, he ended up having to join a clinic and talked me into joining bc I was his only dependable ride. No one ever explained to me how big of a hole I was jumping in when I joined.... So, with that said, I've had a RX for Xanax and adderall since I joined. My mid wife just cut me off both Xanax and adderall when the clinic requested a verification with no reason behind her decision. ( I was totally honest with her about EVERYTHING) now when I'm about 2-3 days without the Xanax I have seizures. I've had about 4-5 within this yr. I'm at 130mg of methadone currently. I really want to be tapered/weaned off it all but I can't find a doctor that will help me.... What are your suggestions/ thoughts?

PLEASE HELP!!!