Hi, I'm depressed about my girlfriends past, I'm obsessing about it and visualizing things that she's told me about it, it drives me crazy. I can't stop thinking about it, and it's going to ruin the best thing that's ever happened to me.

She lost her virginity at like 15, started drinking and smoking at 13, then using cocaine at 16, then moving on to sleeping with anyone she could from 16-17. Because of her cocaine addiction in high school she was taken advantage of by a teacher, blackmailed her into fucking him. Which in my mind wouldn't have happened if she just wasn't using god damn cocaine in high school. And she got HPV before, it's gone now but it still pisses me off.

I'm not perfect, I have slept around, I've slept with 15 year old's before so a lot of this shouldn't bother me but it does. I've never gotten and STD's nor did I so drugs in high school, but it haunts me, and I hate her past, how can I move on and forget it?

I should say that she's nothing like that now, she's an amazing girlfriend and I'd marry her, it's just I can't stop being haunted by what she's told me.