I suffer from major depression, life has been very stressful for over a year. Ive been very suicidal because i dont see a light at the end of the tunnel. I finally got the courage to get a gun and now all I think about is using it. The only reason Im still alive is because i have a 22 year old daughter and two of the most beautiful granddaughters on the earth, they are my only purpose, i would never ever do anything on purpose to hurt them. I also have a great doctor, i am resistant to medication as well. I also have been going through a divorce for 18 months, i was married for 22 years. I love my girls but i just dont want to live anymore, this is killing me inside