I was on fentanyl and 30 mgs oxycodone for 4 yrs. My pain management doctor came to my practice and all he ever wanted to do was injections and nerve blocks a day surgery . I went to a block bbq, hence smoked a little pot , which haven't done since high school in small amounts or none at all. Not realizing it stays in your system so long it showed up on a drug screen so he dropped me cold turkey ! I was so sick thought I 'did die. I called the office over and over then finally the next week he went on vacation so his PA I'don't known longer than him prescribed some Klondike and cloning which helped me. This doctor that left me nothing is horrible . Left a red flag by name at every hospital in my city, doctors offices, even the one I worked at. I found a pop that put me back on the patch and oxymoron in a smaller amount , then one day says the oxygen isn't in my system . Which was wrong . I take my medicine . So now who wants to help me . Then CVS starts saying I'm switching my pharmacy . Always CVS same distance from my house except 1 being 24hrs. I figured it's all CVS they're all connected big deal. 3rd strike. I was supposed to wear a brace from neck to waist at age 12. No way for me. I was cheering , gymnastics and volleyball . Let alone playing football with neighborhood kids. I've been in a couple car crashes . 2 yrs. ago the worst had to be air lifted to a trauma center . They had me on oxycontin, per covet and occasional shot of dilaudid. I easy in hospital 6 days w/broken ankle bilateral multiple rib fractuers, had plastic surgery around my eye, praise Jesus I still have it. They sent me home with same med school minus the shots. I have herniated discs, condo a Malacca in my knees osteoarthritis , and nice "rib hunt" as my phys call therapist it. I have a nice pcphis can that gave me back my Valium just 10MG a day which again a lower dose used to be 3MG Xanax However Valium not only helps my anxiety but is also a great muscle relaxer . I am receiving 3 oxycodonedaily. It's a start however nothing compared to my original . I cannot get into a pain specialist thanks to a few puffs of Mara Juana and a cream of a doctor in the wrong proffesion. His own colleagues agreed. This is now my life history , apologies . So all of these online pharmacies are so tempting and I am scared of back surgery . I'm on disability javelin been battling breastfeeding cancer since 09 when I had a lumectomy. This year they went all the way with mastectomy . It still hurts. I'm a wreck and only 49 yrs old. How am I to get the care I need especially on disability /medicaid( which psychological $721 a month and 4 scripts per month ) I know people who get twice as much money plus food stamps and they work!!!! There's something very wrong with that scenario . There used to be a website called doctors and pills back 2003 my Flat doc told me about when I moved back to CA. As long as you were a patient they'd deliver your medication . What happened to that? I feel like moving out of this state . It doesn't care about the health of its residents . Thanks for letting me vent . I'm sure you'll find a question or two in there.