Ok so I ive been "asking Google" why I've been doing and feeling like this, and I've went 3x to my doctor to tell her & I always end up making up another reason why I'm there cause I'm embarrassed, I always think about embarrassing moments and my heart will start racing, or when something I say sounds weird or embarrassing I think about it for days, and how I could of changed it so that I didn't sound stupid. When people talk to me or say bye, I end up talking but I look away! It always happens I can't look them in the eye for too long I feel weird. Every time my boyfriend talks about going to the bars or a party we get invited to my heart starts racing. And I think about how I'm gonna feel the whole time. Or if he's gonna dance with another girl in front of me again (he did that 5years ago) or if someone's going to talk to me and I'm gonna freeze up and sound stupid, is this normal??! I feel like everyone else has so much confidence and I don't.