this is so hard. diagnosed almost 10 years ago with RA. initial treatment was methotrexate, humira, steroids, folic acid and pain meds. 2 years with humira and it was no longer working. swithed to Enbrel, had an alleric reaction, switched to simponi and just went from self injection to infusion. (insurance reasons). had a heart attack October 29, 2014. problems have gotten worse. got off steroids. they were killing me. started having pain on my left side feels like right under the ribs. had a ct scan of my lungs & now am having a test to see if I have pulmonary fibrosis. since being off steroids, I have gained almost 50 pounds, my legs and feet are swollen and red. full on ra flair up to the point where I can barely get up or down. once I get up I am able to move around but can't do very much before lower back pain and the pain on left side as described earlier. things are really feeling hopeless.