Diagnosed With Major Depression. On Prozac. Why Do I Feel Good With 5mg And Worse With 10mg?
I'm sorry to hear that you've been going through a difficult time lately. I can understand that it is indeed difficult to deal with your depression, suicidal ideas and your PTSD.
Prozac (Fluoxetine) is an SSRI antidepressant commonly used in the treatment of depression. Now, there could be a reason why you had felt worse with 10 mg, when you had actually felt good with 5 mg. SSRI antidepressants including Prozac have a side effect of paradoxically increasing anxiety or inner restlessness in the initial few days of starting treatment. So, it is possible that these side effects were not prominent with a lower dose, but became more obvious with an increase in dose. Neverthless, if you are comfortable and doing well with 5 mg of Prozac, then you can continue the same dose.
It is also not abnormal for a person to feel a little excited or experience temporary emotions of happiness even when they are in a depressive phase and feeling suicidal. So, it does not mean that you are pretending or trying to seek attention. You could try explaining this in a gentle way to your room mate, so that she is able to understand what you arevgoing through. I understand that since you have already been through a lot of emotional trauma and have been in an abusive relationship with your parents, you may be very worried or fearful or losing trustworthy relationship in your friend. Don't worry, I'm sure that she will be able to understand you and continue to support you.
Regarding the possibility of an in-patient programme, this decision will be tkaken only in consultation with you and your dear ones. So, you can feel free to discuss this in detail with your psychiatrist, and express your concerns and choice in this matter.
So, don't get too worried and distressed; I'm sure that with continued treatment and therapy, you will be able to overcome your problems soon.
Wish you all the best.
Regards,
Dr. Jonas Sundarakumar
Consultant Psychiatrist