Brief Answer:
It could be Obsessive compulsive disorder

Detailed Answer:
Hello,
Thanks for using Healthcaremagic.

I read your query and understand your concerns.

From the available description it appears to me that you are having intrusive thoughts which means thoughts, images which are unacceptable to one but they occur despite resistance.

Generally these thoughts most often occur in obsessive compulsive disorder other wise known as OCD. The other possible causes include major depressive disorder, thought disorders among others.

I feel it will be appropriate to get yourself tested by having in person psychiatric consultation. This will help to arrive on a definite diagnosis.

I hope this helps you.
Feel free to write back to me if you have more questions.
Thanks and regards.

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Brief Answer:
Follow up

Detailed Answer:
Dear Selva,
Thanks for reverting back to me.

It is true that many of the individuals with OCD have some symptoms from the early years of life and does not cause serious anxiety for years. Most individuals feel need for improvement only after there is increase in severity of symptoms.

I think we can discuss career and personal life aspect only after formal diagnosis as it all depends on the severity of symptoms.

OCD on the current date is treatable disorder and available medications as well as CBT is effective for majority of subjects. I feel you are not supposed to worry about the impact of OCD as we can expect descent improvement with available treatment.

I hope this helps you.
Thanks again.

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