Question: 1) I have a strange problem i think, i am trying to quit smoking & typically when there is a craving i get lot of pain around my spinal,i did have a small accident 10 years back tht is when i 1st had severe back pains few years later it kinda erased but sometimes it does without any medication.

2) I loose my self control when tensed,angry , my body kinda cant keep in control i feel the nerves holding me back my body feels all over stiff cant make much movements if i do i feel pain on back shoulder , neck etc & i keep walking or shouting or if eating then eat a lot or get intense at whatever i am doing like working intensely,if on call i keep talking n talking, if smoking then too much smoking & with all these my emotions n feeling i unwantingly start sharing with anybody around even somebody whom i wud have met only once n hardly talk to me.
I dont know is this effect of smoking, 2 suicide attempts abt 16 years back or my childhood habit of staying alone thinking a lot which happens even now at times tht i have worked hard to get over with n gud success but still its elements reflect.

4) My habit of thinking a lot , sometimes try to solve problems n achieve many things just in thoughts like love friendship happiness around me even peace by just hinking & thinking & thinking.

Occassionally once in 3-4 months only i drink.When with friends or alone.
Beer or vodka as long as i can manage that burning body heat,

I dont know whts with me - typically i dont want to psycologist as a doctor had suggested me once to do so. Please advise.

Thanks & Regards XXXXXXX