Question: Chronic pain not due to fibromyalgia. Had bone spur and bulging disc compressing spinal cord S/P ACLFC 5–6. S/P vertebral plasty a T 12 for compression fracture, herniated disc of L 2–3 and spondylolisthesis of L4 – five with chronic sciatica. Torn rotator cuff right shoulder. I have heard every day since separate respond to loose in 1987. I do not allow pain to put me down unless it is literally impossible to walk. Then I go on steroids until I can walk again. I am very sensitive to many medications. I had a cardiac ablation done due to an extra pathway and when I started on the gabapentin , It took me a year to get to the dose they tried to start me at, as soon as I took 600 at one time I developed an arrhythmia. This is controlled with 12.5 mg of Lopressor 3 to 4 times per day. It's a trade off for being able to walk. I cannot take enough pain medication to come close to stopping the pain I take enough so that every thought in my head isn't how bad I hurt.

I no longer work but I have adopted two children so I'm always taking them places for activities and such, my 85-year-old mother is doing chemo and so I'm always taking her to doctors and such, and since I can no longer work as a nurse, I have been a volunteer guardian ad litem (Casa) for nine years . I was a foster mom for four years before that but stop fostering when my children were adopted. I actually worked in psychiatry and taught cbt and stress management I have no problem with going to see a psychiatrist not sure what they're going to be able to do for me that pain management, a sleep specialist, and my family doctor/internist can't. I was diagnosed with Crohn's in 1983 and have always control this without medication.

I know my triggers and I also learned to eat through the pain rather than stopping eating which is why I went to the hospital originally i've basically trained myself to see that as hundred pains because I know what will happen if I stop eating. I experience premature menopause in my 30s. I'd like to tell people I'm in good shape for the shape I'm in LOL I guess this dissertation was to try to explain why I don't think this is fibromyalgia. I know my own body better than most and I'm not one to freak out over a new symptom. But honestly this is bizarre. I thought perhaps it was something along the line of a migraine as you can't see anything in total darkness at least I never have. The fact that I can feel my heartbeat in my ears is not new due to chronic congestion because of allergies but hearing it and seeing it to me is new and strange.

Recently have had generalized body aches but no fever. Have had several "waves" of nausea. Thought coming down with flu though did have flu shot. About a month ago.

Last few nights in darkened room realized when opening my eyes seeing a cloud of "dust" by light of tv

I should say I have narcolepsy so normally fall asleep as soon as I go to bed, even after having slept in chair

Tonight dog was barking which I don't normally hear before my husband but I had gone to bed early and when I went back to bed realized could hear my heart beating and even with my eyes closed I would "see" pink diffuse light which would fade. I have a tendency to clench my jaw, due to chronic pain and realized that it increased the noise. I can't see this in bright lights and while have heard this before blamed pressure from allergies. Know you can't give diagnosis but should I see an opthomologist or family doctor? I do have mild hypertension which again I feel is a result of pain as it fluctuates generally increasing when I am in more pain.