Is the fact that she has limited learning skills,(only went to the 9th grade, in special class), is mentally emotionally underdeveloped, ( mentally challenged person, or retarded), she has no social skills (parents were cruel and had her locked, up isolated) during childhood, parents breaking her toys, killing her pet cat, father alcoholic, possible sexual abuse. Is this why she finds the world so hard to deal with? Also she seems according to her last inhospital
psychiatrist in 2008, she regresses almost back into an infant stage While she was being treated, it made it very difficult to treat her, none of the meds worked, they gaveup, thats why they threatened her with State Psychiatric Hospital of the Insane. After which time she came around almost same day.
But at the same time when they discharge her to out patient, she returns home and goes right back into bed again, won't shower, or leave house. She says she cannot deal with the programs, has nothing to say, she knows she has a learning problem.
But each Hospital insists on there process of : 1- heavy medication to get the patient stable; 2- transfer to long outpatient program, or semi-long term (30 days) in patient residence. All in all she always returns home to bed?
To help you answer, a short HX;
1- 1994 we got married, had a home, became very stressful, sort out psychiatry help, prescribed: ambien, Xanax, Prozac, Zoloft. shortly after attempted suicide took all pills, Hospitalized( inpatient,2wks, inpatient residence 4wks, released after her not getting better) got home with just ambien, valium. Saw therapist. Ok for 10 yrs. why don'know.
2- 2004 brother died, went to er for insomnia/depressed, admitted to psych ward, given valiums, ambiens, seroquel(25mg), released after 1 wk. same condition readmitted same hospital, same drugs plus remeron, zoloft, etc. released after 2 wks, told to go report to outpatient hospital following monday, did not go told by staff if not could be back in, took
drug overdose of all remeron at home. Readmitted for 4wks, more drugs (as I described in the initial question on this site) given, frozen in fear, stayed in bed, transfered to inresidence longer term facility, facility changed all meds around, was on ambien, valium, buspar, when unable to do learning tasks and other mental/educational excersies forced to clean tiolets and substandard duties, frozen in fear,took attorney to release her, came home , stayed in bed-situation identical to what I have now.
2005 -after 5 months of attempted
home care, still not going out, admitted to diff psych hospital, was placed on ambien,valium,
cymbalta, lithium kicker, under care of kind india doctor Dr XXXXXXX discharged to out patient, pickup at home program. Completed cured, was seeing diff therapist, on remeron, cymbalta, seroquel, valium, ambien. Fine for 3 yrs.
2008- Nov bought new home, had to move, had to pack, make difficult decsion, rushed, stressful for wife, alot of responsibility for her, had argument with my father. Wk later overdosed on all her meds. Admitted to hospital, under care of diff psychiatrist (above one that stated she regresses, also said "not a med I can give you your
depression is from outside not in, she has
Personality Disorder), tried meds, frozen in fear,this time almost all types,flat effect. released to outpatient, did not go. same thing hid in bed would not go out, frozen in fear. I had to admit her to inpatient residence facility, meds, all kinds given including lexapor,abilify, halol, flat effect, hiding in bed, frozen in fear,psych recommended ECT, not done, responded to some meds, (I think they just gave up) , released her to outpatient for 4 wks in 2009.
2009 - had to drive her too scared to drive) completed only 2.5 wks, came home, back in bed (same situation as now), frozen in fear,
anxiety. After 2 months able to contact dr XXXXXXX Came to home, kept her on valium, upped seroquel, cymbalta, added lithium. She was home treated for 4 wks , therapist and him came to home, (as stated it in my first conver with you) cost me $$$. After 4 wks she was fine, went out, not frozen in fear. Took her off lithium, stayed on cymbalta,seroquel, valium, ambiem.Good for 4yrs.
2013 -brings us up to our current situation, you know about the taper. She still fine till about Dec 2013, however still fine. Was going out not frozen in fear. Seeing kind therapist specility, child therapy.
2014 Mar- down to 20mg cymbalta, however did discussed responsibilities of new home, on my wifes insistance, showed her what to do, father spoke with her over phone nonconfrontational. This was last week Monday, she was outgoing wk ago from today. Following day, depressed, frozen in fear, extremely anxiety ridden, kept saying "what am going to do when you die" I can,t take care of this place, your father is a nosey body, etc.
Now all she things about how she is not going to get better, being hospitalized, all the depression talk, she wants to die, However on that note, from past episodes, she relates dieing with pill overdose, but I HAVE ALL THE PILLS LOCKED UP IN A SAFE, and only leave her 2 days supply, thats it tops, thats only 2-cymbaltas pills,2- seroquels pills, 6 2mg Valium pills, thats it.
Again sorry for the lenghty essay. What are your thoughts?
PS Dr XXXXXXX is retired
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