When I Leave The House And Go On Public Transportation

Question: When I leave the house and go on public transportation such as train or bus I start to worry that I%E2%80%99m going to vomit or get sick from someone else or think I have some illness. And I%E2%80%99d start to feel a little nauseous (like loss of appetite) not major nausea, and my heart will start to beat a bit fast and I%E2%80%99ll just feel a hot feeling but then it goes away after a few minutes if I smoke or start walking around doing something or I%E2%80%99ll have a sip of water, listen to music or keep myself busy. Also, I googled symptoms and some of the conditions google lists are serious conditions. I start to get scared and don%E2%80%99t want to go places because I think I%E2%80%99m going to vomit, and I don%E2%80%99t eat out in public because of the same reason above. And I%E2%80%99m afraid of getting full because maybe I%E2%80%99d throw up or something and then start feeling the same way, so I%E2%80%99ll smoke a cigarette and I%E2%80%99ll calm down. I haven%E2%80%99t been eating much (I%E2%80%99ve went 1-2 days without eating out of fear) and I just drink water and eat little because I don%E2%80%99t want to feel sick. I also check the food like 100%25 to make sure it%E2%80%99s cooked and who ever cooked it washed their hands, if the food is old, or has an odd taste or someone else gets sick from it then I start to think I am. There were days I thought I was sick and just stayed in bed all day. also when I%E2%80%99m out in public eating or just in a place outside my home then I%E2%80%99m like feeling my forehead, neck and back constantly checking myself if I have a temperature. This has been going on for about 7-8 months. What%E2%80%99s causing my symptoms? Do you think It%E2%80%99s some type of underlying illness?? I google a lot and sometimes makes things worse.

I%E2%80%99ve been told its anxiety. But sometimes it just comes about by itself. If im full I start to think im nauseous or if i eat too much or too fast, and then goes away after i get up and do something or smoke and relax. Is there something wrong? I worry so much about this and im not sure if its real or if its anxiety. is there any condition that would make me feel like this other than anxiety? I get this empty like feeling and just feel like eh. I always time myself after i eat, i set the timer for 3 hours to reassure myself i wont be sick. most of the time well all the time im ok but if I eat something that i know or think wasnt prepared properly i%E2%80%99ll start to feel a little sick feeling or i%E2%80%99ll make myself think that i guess and then i wouldnt eat, either for a day or two.

I have lost weight though. But I’m assuming it doesn’t count because I did it intentionally by not eating enough or eating nothing for days at a time sometimes and drink just 2 liters of water a day or so

So you think it’s just the anxiety? Also I’ve noticed when I start getting anxious after a while I need to use the bathroom and the bowel movement is solid but a little bit mushy. Is that normal ? Any other time it’s normal

Sorry for so many questions. I just google a lot and then I get scared from what it says.

Also my anxiety has been for about 6-7 months. I was taking medicine for a month and a half which was helping but then I stopped. And I was suppose to go to cognitive behavioral therapy but I was afraid of going on the train because I thought I’d get sick

Yes, I’ll get in contact with my psychiatrist. I’ve always had this type of anxiety but it got worse about 6-7 months ago. After meeting a few people that were sick or I thought they were sick.

serious diseases don’t just linger for extended times??

Thank you so much! That made me feel a bit better. But I just have to train brain to know this

Clearly shown itself in what ways?

Ah ok yes I don’t have any of those symptoms. As far for blood test goes, I haven’t gotten a blood test in years.

I would do it but I’m still afraid of finding out results. Like if I have a medical condition or something god forbid.