Afraid Of Pain During Sex. What Pill Would You Recommend?

Hi! Okay, so I m a virgin, 18 year old girl. I m TERRIFIED of losing my virginity , cause of the pains. But Im really ready for sex. I ve had several boyfriends over the past 5 years, but nothing seem to work. Even though I trust them, and I m in the mood, and so on. I ve even tried getting reeeeally drunk, and pretty high, but it just doesnt work. I ve visited a gynecologist , and she told me everything was normal.. I m getting really impatient, and we (my boyfriend and I) are gonna try take some pills so that I pass out, I dont see any other way. It drives me crazy. So the question is, what pill would you recomend? (Ofcourse its not recomended to take pills unless you need them, but I have made up my mind) Does regular painkillers (without prescriptions) have any effect on this? Thankyou so much for answering :)