I m a addict in recovery who suffers from depression(since childhood) . I am on 300mg Effexor, 2 mg Ativan a.m p.m., 2400 mg neuron tin, and 75 mg mirtazipine as well as vitamin d, c, folic acid,methyl b-12, centrum multi vitamin. What do you think about my meds for depression? Also, in active addiction I self medicate w speed type drugs so I have energy. Instead of using harmful illegal drugs , could I take adderal on a controlled basis?