dear doctors please answer me i am 16 years old inocent boy before i didnt masturbrated or anything then afterwords in my school my friends showed me pore video 1 i see 2 time i see then i started seeing it before 1 month only so while sleep sometimes sperm used to come out that time i was welll then one day i say in my home i was alone then by seeing that nude girls i was not able to control myself i took out many sperm you think it was like sex only but without girl then from that time when my heart beats and know it well and i think as if my whole body is moving and yes my chest and everywhere before it was small and now it is growing before i was not having muscles and now i saw it is growing and i feel energyless and before there was less hair in my body after doing that more hair is coming in my body/stomach before when while sleep little little was coming sperm but i ddint feel like this but when i took out more sperm then it happened and after that 1 time more sperm came while sleep promise i didt want to do this bcuz of my new friends this happen and i think like this that i am born again new life i promise and i am crying and writing this please help me what will happen when i marry now next month i am going to become 17 after doing that now hate my self and my life want to die i dont know even when i marry i be able to produce a child or no shiiit what i did my god please help me i will be very thankfull to you