Alright so this has been going on for about a week now, but it gets worse as time goes by. I ve been really concerned about my heart. I don t know why. Idk about you guys, but with me I can feel my heart beat through my chest , without even putting my hand in any pulse area (such as putting my throat , etc). I just walk around feeling my heart beat. And it has been beating too fast lately, MOST of the time, for no apparent reason. Like right when I start thinking about it it just begins its crazy out of control rhythm that I just can t stop and the more I think about stopping it the more it beats faster and the harder it is for me to stop it! I just feel exhausted, and feel like fainting with my heart beating so fast all the time. But the last few days have been different. Fortunately I was able to get my mind off my heart a little and let it beat normally. However, last night I almost went out of my mind. I was so scared . You see, I m used to hearing/feeling the beat of my heart through my chest while I m doing my everyday activities. I don t if I can feel it because I am thin (18 years old, 5 8 and I weigh 120 pounds). Can anyone else feel their heart beat? So yeah, back to last night.. I went to bed, and I was just lying there reading. Unfortunately I just couldn t read. I was so anxious, so scared, I felt so weird it s so annoying. All of a sudden I couldn t feel my heart beat through my chest as usual! My chest was like DEAD. I was freaking out. I then began to think the beat was getting weaker, and that s why I can t feel it. I put 2 fingers to my throat and I could feel my pulse, but why couldn t I feel it through my chest like I could before!? As time went by I get more anxious, more scared. I ended up getting out of my bed MANY times cause I thought my heart was about to stop. I just didn t feel like sleeping, I wanted to wake up my parents and go to the emergency room. But I just couldn t.. cause I ve had an anxiety attack in the past when I thought my heart stopped, and my parents took me to the ER many times, the doc always tells us it s just anxiety and so my dad got really pissed of with every attack, trying to convince me it was nothing but I didn t take in a word he said. I always make them take me back. So it was frustrating, and I don t want to go back to the doc with him telling me it s just anxiety , and embarrassing myself again. And I don t want to scare my parents, either. They ll think I m really sick when it could just be anxiety. So when I got out of bed I starting going down the stairs, when I m anxious I just can t stay in one place and I have to walk. Then I could finally hear my heart beat through my chest SO hard, very fast. Due to me being so scared. I was relieved, and exhausted. I sat on the stairs, miserable. I ended up getting back in bed, but the sense of my heart beat disappeared again, the only way I can feel it is through my neck pulse. What in the world? And when I awoke this morning, same deal. I can no longer feel the strong, frequent beat I always feel that assures me everything s okay. Unless everything s like dead quiet, and I concentrate REALLY hard, I feel a light, weak beat. It doesn t pound in a healthy, heavy way. The beats of my heart haven t changed, it has a normal rhythm, but it s quality has.. Could this be anxiety? Please help.. I ve got no sister just 2 brothers and I can t really talk to them they ll just laugh. I m open to any questions.. I m so anxious, so scared. I ve just moved to Illinois 5 days ago and my condition isn t letting me enjoy anything. Plus I ll be starting school soon, that ll be hell with my heart driving me nuts . I m starting to think I have heart disease, I m afraid my heart will stop any moment now. I want to cry!!