I AM STUCK, & I AM GROWING OLD. I ve BEEN TOLF I have c ptsd, and mdd. ando I cannot find a doctor th Medicaid, sat will liwten, but only fusses about me, being on methadone. ai hqve been on it to long, but the 18 yrs that I have I have had no dirty urines. I feel there is no hope, what wouold be the best thing to do next?