i have a feeling of being stuck i try hard to manage more than one world where i want to belong and too often find both collapsing and being lost with noone to talk to. the more i try to balnace both worlds i see one falling apart and making my life very difficult. often i find myself out of focus which is making me very scared as i am a hgih achiever and there is always alot of pressure on me. since recently i have started living alone and had been feeling very lonely for no special reason and often had gone out partying and drinking to help myself feel free but i dont feel right