Hi, can I answer your health question? Please type your question here... Hello, I m not sure how to begin... can u help me? I m not suicidal but I wake everyday wishing I didn t, I am not motivated to live life. I push people away after building a possible foundation of friendship. I don t have any real friends. I can t tell my family that I am loosing the will to live. I am jobless now. I had a job before but I felt so unhappy. Frankly speaking when I wake up in the morning I m so tired, do I have to face life? I can t look in the mirror for long, I don t have self esteem, I try to distract myself but when I have a break every negative thought and emotion comes in a rush. I m scared that one day I might just break.