Hi, I don t know if this is where I m supposed to go. I don t know what to honestly do right now. I just need to talk to someone and nobody is around me right now. My family is tens of hours away and I don t have close friends by my side. Plus, I have a feeling nobody will believe me what I feel and just belittle whatever I tell them since I m considered to be tough. There is a lot of things happening around me and not just today, but I think I hit the lowest point. For two past years I ve suffered from depression states(?) something like that - my psychologist said so but she was the type of person to pick up calls while I was opening to her about what I feel. That s why I m looking for help whenever, I know I need help to cope with everything. I don t know what is happening to me. I ve been overwhelmed by stress from school/university, my grandma s serious health issues, my health issues and other factors. There is no emotion in me for months, I laugh of course, I tend to smile but it s nothing that I feel inside. It s like a thing that has to happen, I don t know how to explain it. It s just so empty. Few things happened today that pushed me into thought I never knew I would have and I ended up sobbing for hours now. I had this before, when I was still at school I would explode in crying. Feeling little, unimportant, forgotten, not worth anything. It has been so long and I m just tired of everything. Seems I could sleep for hours during the day because I m free off everything, but I m awake at night and that s when the guilt I m wasting my life, destroying myself. I don t know what to do. I don t even know if this is the right place to go, I ve been searching online for hours. I don t want to feel all this today, I want this to be over as fast as it can be. How do I get out of this? Where should I go? All of what is happening to me goes on on inside, but I have a feeling it s seriously starting to affect me on the outside to, but I don t have the strength to talk to anybody about this that s why I m writing. What should I do? I m sorry my English may not be the best but I m not native. I just need a hint. Anything please, I m desperate.