Dear, I understand your feelings and empathize them. Masturbation is not a bad practice in life. Almost 90% of men masturbate in their life, the percentage of women being less. It is an act to have an outlet to the sexual desire without actually getting involved in sexual act with some one else. So long it is not becoming an obsession or a vice, masturbation may be continued. However, if it starts becoming an obsession, then you have to curb the habit by engaging yourself and your mind in some other non-disturbing activities and thoughts. Meditation is one of the good effective ways to overcome such practices. Once a person gets involved with the sexual act with other person, mostly a partner of the opposite sex, the habit of masturbation goes away. So another best option is to find out a permanent life partner - may be by getting married. I hope you got the answer.