Hi, I'm 22 years old and I've been dealing with depression for a few years now. At first I thought it would pass, but this wasn't the case. I also have lots of anxiety - most days I don't leave my room. I've taken recreational drugs to help cope, but it's no cure. I'm not sure what to do now or what kind of help I can ask for. I depend on my mom & her boyfriend to survive which just adds stress to the whole situation, but I can't deal with working in public. Sometimes I have suicidal thoughts but I don't think I'd ever go through with it, for my family sake. I've tried talking to my friends but that has just proven futile, and I've come to realize these people were not my friends. Any suggestions?