Hey, Well, since the start of the year, I have been really down. Things have happened at school, and I lost a friend, have no friends, am a loner etc. I ve had many fights at school and at home. like, nearly every day. I haven t had the best childhood and I ve got repressed memories. When my mum reminds me about events that happened during my childhood it suddenly hits me very clearly, and then, I can t stop crying. I ve been bullied by my family, cousins and peers for like, my whole life. I have screwed up to friendships-the most important ones to me. I ve caused another person to have depression, and I suffer from a lot of guilt. I didn t know I was hurting them-and worst of all they were my best friend. In the end they left the school. :( But, right now, I have insomnia and I am always very down. I feel anxious, stressed, upset, and angry because of the things that have happened. I can t stop crying and sometimes I suddenly have trouble breathing and I just have to take deep breaths to calm myself down. And inside, I have a sinking feeling. I can t remember the last time I ve been happy for at least a day. Just yesterday, my only friend, ended the friendship with me. I keep having this attacks when I m really really upset. I keep on crying and I m never cheerful. I hardly even smile anymore. What s wrong with me?