Dear brother(?)/sister, It is unfortunate and I can understand that you suffer a lot nowadays. But be rest assured. You will be getting rid of all these in a short span of time. The symptoms you manifest are the classic symptoms of some depression. We, the human beings are basically animals with a social orientation.i.e social animals. We need someone to share. In your case upteenth time, could not find someone to share with. For your knowledge, I wish to narrow down your issues in a different perspective. Let me show you four persons within you. The dynamcis of these persons are measured with your interaction with your society and the society starts from your family itself. The first person within you is the person known to you and your society- i.ie both the society and yourself are aware of you. This is your free area and you can interact with the society well in this area. The second person is the One who is known to society only and you are unaware about this person. To be precise, it is what society thinks of you and you are not aware. You need to interact with the society well to know what the society thinks of you. The third person is the hidden personality within you. It is the person within you and not known to the society. That means there is a hidden aspect of you which is not known to the society. This is the only aspect which hinders you in your further advancement towards a fuller life. The fourth person is the one about whom neither you nor your society are aware of. The fourth one being the person not known to you and the society. The first area if you widen as much as possible you will be shifting yourself from ILLNESS to WELLNESS. The more you are with the society, more are the chances of your recovery. Find a person with whom you can confide everything. In case, you don t find, check for the psychologist available in town.You can consult a psychologist for a personality assessment an emotional release to deal with the other three areas. The balancing of the brain chemistry can be taken care of by a psychiatrist with a short duration medication. Get well soon, Dr Rajesh Thottingal Kalam rehabilitation Psychologist from India