Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. You already gave up your medication. Once you restart it, it shall alter the neuron structure once again. The better option is changing life style suitable for your condition. You know you have mood swings and OCD (I think you had it checked and confirmed by a clinical psychologist). You also know the occassions at which you do not feel them. If you do not know, keep a daily log and in a fortnight you will find a pattern. Now from that day onwards, follow the schedule which creates lesser and lesser mood swings. It is that easy and is called psychotherapy. Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.