Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Past is past. Whatever happened in your life in the past, taught you a lesson. Positive experiences taught you positive lessons. Negative experiences taught you positive lessons (positive because, those lessons shall come handy in your future). In any case, you learned something positive. We have no enemies. We see god in every person, then we cannot hate anyone. That is the basic lesson. Yesterday is over don t look back except for positive feelings. Tomorrow is uncertain. Plan and be prepared, but don t be apprehensive. Live today, be happy, enjoy the one and only life given to you by the almighty. Thoughts are there to come and that is the duty of the brain. let the thoughts come. You need to divert the thoughts to more priority ones. Means, be busy and divert thoughts. Relaxation and meditation plays an important role in controlling mental disorders. Plenty of water, oxygen and exercise also are most important. For more psychotherapy techniques, You can post a direct question to me in this website. Include every detail as much as you can. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques to control your condition. I am sure that the techniques should be a success. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.