Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Researchers and researches confirmed several times that medicines alone cannot cure any mental disorders. Therefore every mental health treatment should include psychotherpy and meditation. Psychotheapy helps you to streamline your lifestyle and behavior. Meditation streamlines your metabolism and thinking process. You should get Cognitive Behavior Therapy under the expert supervision of a psychotherapist / psychologist. Meditation can also b taught by them. Please do not ignore this advise. Recovery is for sure. If you require more of my services in this regard, please post a direct query and I shall be happy to provide you psychotherapy tips. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.