Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. In my sincere opinion, you should stop worrying about this problem. The more try to focus on the problem, the problem looms large and you cannot see the solutions which are abundant. Ignore the problem and you see the solutions. The best method is to do the same thing, which you fear, again and again. You already do that. Just try to recall occasions where you forgot your problems and became bold. You did it because there were no other solutions. that is the clue. Make sure that you have no other solutions except doing it . You shall be alright. Ignore the negative thinking and assure yourself that you are doing right and shall one day accomplish the task. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.