I m 16 years old, almost 17 and i deal with stress and depression almost on a daily basis. Ive been bullied in the past, and that has bulit up a huge amount of hate inside me. And also it has changed my personality complitely.(im still a good kid though)Unlike 5 years ago, i get angry easily, anything makes me want to swear, i often catch my self in deep hatred towards humanity BUT I LOVE LIFE, i definetly have my future in mind but like i said, i hate most people. Anywhoo, i also am very strange, i can feel what people are thinking about me, its like my brain and heart automatically read people s feelings about me... MY PARENTS DONT LISTEN, THEY THINK IM JUST BEING PARANOID, but i can guarantee you that i am NOT paranoid. ALSO, i can sense people s pain, and make it my own.. like, i can feel other people s pain and understand them even without ever being in their situation. One more thing. MUSIC, it hightens my ability to live, example, if i aint feeling pretty, or if im tired i can just plog in my ears with some music and my mood lights up automatically. I cant go out without music. (THE REASON IM WRITING ALL THIS, IS TO LET THE READER KNOW EXACTLY WHAT MY PERSONALITY IS). (The other night, i was calmly watching a movie on my phone, very relaxed without a care in the world, and out of nowhere MY HEART SHOOCK TO THE SIDES SOOO HARD THAT I FELT EVERY SINGLE BIT OF IT.) (It actually jumped around) I get really bad heat waves alot, (could be stress, or because i shower with really hot water) and it always happens when im relaxed playing with my phone. My heart speeds every now and then. (Mom says that for stuff like that to happen, a person must be either excited or ancious, but when these things happen i am always relaxed watching dramas on my phone.) When i was little i was taken to the doctor and they checked my heart, and they said that i was 100% healthy, my heart rate was very normal. Infact, every time i go to the doctor my heart pulse is always calm. So i NEVER get to prove that these things really happen. 3 NIGHTS AGO MY LEFT EAR BLED, BUT THEN I CLEANED UP THE BIT OF BLOOD AND IT STOPED COMPLITELY.. NO PAIN, NO NOTHING, INFACT, I GRABBED AN EAR THINGY TO CLEAN OUT THE BLOOD, BUT THE BLOOD WAS GONE. IT ONLY TOOK ONE EAR THINGY TO CLEAN MY EAR, THEN THE BLOOD DISSAPEARED. Is this normal? Are my heat waves harming my ears? Idk, (PERSONALLY I DONT THINK THAT THERE IS ANYTHING WRONF WITH ME, BUT THEN AGAIN, I SHOULD LET THE PROS DECIDE THAT.)