Hi, I had gone through your question and understand your concerns. I first congratulate you on being so strong and brave . You are a winner in life. I must help you. It is not that you lose everything you eat . It is a fact that some of us have a faster rate of metabolism and hence the inability to gain weight. Do not worry. Let me help you out. To gain weight, you need to eat more calories than your body uses each day. You need to do this regularly. It s not enough just to have occasional extra snacks Gradual weight gain is always advisable. An increase in 500 kcal per day can result in increasing the body weight by 0.5 kgs per week. Eat plenty of healthy fats. Eat your egg yolks, meat with animal fat, coconut oil, and other healthy fats. Increase caloric intake - of the healthy kind ofcourse. So those bananas count well here. Chew the food properly to improve digestion. Keep a track of your weight gain as this is essential; it is healthy to increase approximately 5 to 6 kgs weight per month. The right combination of healthy food, exercise, right breathing, rest and sleep go a long way in a happier and healthier you Hope this answers your question. If you have additional questions or follow up questions then please do not hesitate in writing to us. I will be happy to answer your questions. Wishing you good health.