I'm thirteen years old, my name is Ivy. I suffer from chronic depression and i've been diagnosed suicidal. I'm very mature for my age, but suffer from self-mutilation like my father. I've been sexually assaulted, verbally, mentally, and emoitionally abused and I just found out my boyfriend of 72 months broke up with me. I can't talk to my mom about it, she didn't know. I can't stop crying, nor can I breathe. Any advice, I'm trying to calm down.