So I have a number of mental health problems including BPD, and most of them stem from sexual abuse i suffered from as a child from my grandfather. I ve recently started to realise that I m curious what it would be like to slice or bite threw someone s skin, make them bleed. I get an urge when I see bare skin to want to know how it feels to slice open someone else s bare skin. I don t want to do it, I just can t help but suffer from clear visuals of how it would feel. As in i can actually visualise what it would be like and then get an inch for it. And I think due to my long history of cutting myself which I get great satisfaction out of, that that s where the urge stems from. But I m scared of mentioning this to anyone, because I could be seen as a threat to others in some people s eyes.