Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I can understand. You are worrying unnecessarily. The whitish liquid comes out through your penis semen itself. That is body s normal procedure and you cannot control it. Body produces sperm cells whenever you are sexually excited. The produced sperm cells are stored inside your body. Because it is a waste product, body needs to throw it out. Body naturally throws out the waste product through urine or through nocturnal emission (dream / night fall). There is nothing to worry about it. Please understand, bend penis are also normal. this is the scenario with most men. The bend is usually due to masturbation. Again there is nothing to worry. I suggest you to consult a psychologist for counseling and to provide you with essential sex related knowledge. Please do not ignore this advise. You need sexological counseling. If you require more of my help in this aspect, please use this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck. Take care.