I haven't had sex since my last relationship ended over a year and a half ago. During that time, I've used a dildo twice - once about two or three months ago, and once within the last 24hrs. My body ripped open this last time, and I filled a toilet full of blood, and bled for at least four hours. I prefer to use a dildo for masturbation, and can't orgasm without penetration. I had put it off for reasons that were mental and/or emotionally based - but, now I'm concerned about being able to take care of my needs without blowing a gasket, while still not damaging myself physically. How concerned should I be about this bleeding, and/or the possibility of something else having internally ripped. Currently, I'm still hurting.