I ve been in treatment for depression for literally yars & I more of a recluse than I couldever feared. I feel hopeless & my doctor, altho he s many accolades ect., & is great for most patients, doesn t seem to be working for me......However, I fear change because it took me months to find him. I don t know what to do & I m MORE depressed than ever & if I thought I would go to Heaven, I would kill myself but I know I can t do that & see Jesus face...............