Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. Though the question seems simple, there is supposed to be more to it. Every behavior has its reasons. If you behave in such a way that you harm yourself, even just once, why? I need an answer to the above question. Generally self harming behavior comes out of anger and frustration. Both these emotional outbursts can go out of hand. Then another question comes forth. What was your emotional state when you tried to harm you in both those occasions? Please, You can post a direct question to me in this website. Include every detail as much as you can. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques to control your condition. I am sure that the techniques should be a success. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.