Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your problem details. I suggest you not to worry much. You are sexually active. Semen is produced whenever you are sexually aroused. If you do not masturbate or indulge in sex, the semen produced cannot be ejected. Then body finds other ways to eject it. like urine, night fall etc. Masturbation is natural and normal. Don t have negative feelings about it. The condition now you are facing is not at all problematic even for your future. You might need psychological counseling., I am more than happy to provide telephone psychological counseling through healthcaremagic. Contact me through customer care, www.healthcaremagic.com. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.