Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your description. I suggest you not to worry too much. The bend of your penis is very much normal and everyone who masturbate have it, either towards left or right. This makes the skin of the longer side stretch and gives a color change. Skin stretch color. the other side becomes little darker. That is all. Bend or lean towards right is a blessing because your penis will be able to stimulate female vagina more. Bend penis is better than straight penis. Is not it? All other problem you are mentioning here is simply your imagination because you are more worried about your penis and sex than your future and academics and actual life. Concentrate on life, not on sex, because sex is not life. You might need psychological counseling., I am more than happy to provide telephone psychological counseling through healthcaremagic. Contact me through customer care, www.healthcaremagic.com. Hope this clears your doubts. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.