Hi doctor . Am 32 years old and its been 4 years since I knew am suffering from OCD . I am not following any treatment since my parents are not supportive and they only scold me for doing repetitive tasks or taking too much time to do something which for them is something simple. The ocd was a new term for me and while reading on the internet I came to know that am suffering from it. As a child, I was suffering from this and used to get negative thoughts.Then, I used to cry whenever I felt irritated by the thoughts. I started to have phobias while being in buses or vehicles that move too quick. I behave foolishly and want the vehicle to stop. But what keeps me more worried is that I fear those negative thoughts might happen. I know OCD people have thoughts that are not real, but since I read the book the secret in which was stated that repetitive thoughts about something can make it real and can make it happen, I am much more worried. I think this book has made my OCD worst. I am always afraid that these thoughts that I do not want to happen may occur like said in the book. Today, there was a ritual for my grand parents who are no longer alive, and while performing those rituals i thought of someone whom i love the most. Now i fear that something bad happen to the person I love the most. I DO NOT WANT SOMETHING BAD TO HAPPEN TO HAPPEN TO THE ONE I LOVE THE MOST. I am worried since those rituals were performed to the dead persons and for me this is something bad.I am angry at myself for not being able to control my mind while performing those rituals. Please help me!! Is there any ayurvedic medecines that I can take to help since I also have my exams and I cannot concentrate at all.