I have eight years of education and owned a small business, I married a very wealthy man and was living a very rich life and walked out after one year. He was controlling and manipulative and narcissistic, I was probably codependent and needy a term his counselor came up with. I needed some stability and trust. He was 15 years older and I waited a long time to get married and do not have children. I was at fault as I had old fashioned and immature ideals of married life. I can t seem to get up and get going anymore. I am tired and depressed and life doesn t appeal to me anymore. I know that I have enough to survive on but I am so ambivalent about my future and ever being with anyone again. I have no friends or family to speak of. just an aging mother who needs my help all of the time. I know that I worked so hard my whole life, I am 56 and now I have nothing but material posessions which I don t even enjoy anymore. I have been to counseling for one year and he says I was emotionally immature and that I need to find something that I can become interested in once again. This man just kept going back and forth and lying to his ex-wife and then me his new wife and I just felt like my head was spinning around. I am so analytical and so capable of compromise but the truth and the needs never came out. I am also very angry as he moved on and found an older woman immediately and had her move in the home we bought together within three months. I just feel so hurt and betrayed and waited for him for six years and it was awful. What do I do to get my exhurberance back?