Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I can assure you that you are not depressed. This is simple disappointment. Disappointment happens with life situations which are unavoidable. In your case, as everything is arranged, the best choice is to get married. slow;y and steadily your disappointment will wane off and you shall be happy. Suicide is not a solution at all. Over and above, your suicide may give worries to your family for a whole life time. Forget suicide. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this URL. http://goo.gl/aYW2pR. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe the needed psychotherapy techniques. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.