Hello dear, After going through your history, I believe you have some genuine concern and I will try to help you out of this situation. From your history I understand and you should realize that you have got Sensorineural Hearing loss in both of your ears, which is mostly because of the drugs you have been given in childhood TO SAVE YOUR LIFE. Sensorineural hearing loss means the weakness of the parts of inner ear responsible for processing of words we hear and also affecting of the nerve which transmits the signal from inner ear to the brain. It is a painful truth to accept that this condition is not reversible and you should accept it as it is. Now, the next thing is to how to manage. Since childhood due to reduced hearing power, you have subconsciously learned the method of lip reading. That s why now you can understand the speaker when he covers his mouth when he speaks. The only solution for this is wearing a Hearing aid which your doctors have advised rightly. There should be no hesitation wearing a hearing aid as people wear glasses when their eye sight gets weak. It is your life and you have the right to live it fully. So go for a good hearing aid without any second thought and enjoy life. In your condition you will need a very good hearing aid, which might cost more. Remember one thing, it takes time to the brain to accept the sound from a hearing aid and get adopt to it. There might be some problem like whistling, intolerance while you use hearing aid for the first time. This generally weans of in a couple of month. I hope I could solve your query. Please do not hesitate to clarify more doubts for the same situation. Thank you for the way you are in my life. Dr Ipsit Panda