Dear Welcome to HCM We understand your concerns I went through your details. I suggest you not to worry much. I am very glad that you diagnosed your problem as possessiveness. i shall go a step further as obsessive behavior. Obsessive behavior makes you to think about whatever you want to forget. If you try to forget something, due to obsessive behavior, that thinking returns again and again. The reason behind obsessive thinking is possessiveness. As now you have understood, the problem shall come down in gravity. Time knows the procedure to heel you and it shall take the course. In the mean time, you should concentrate on your activities such as education, career and games to keep you engaged. If you are able to keep you engaged for a week or so, your obsessive behavior problem is solved, for sure. If you require more of my help in this aspect, Please post a direct question to me in this website. Make sure that you include every minute details possible. I shall prescribe some psychotherapy techniques which should help you cure your condition further. Hope this answers your query. Available for further clarifications. Good luck.