Dear Sir/Madam,
I am Aditya Singh,male,28 yr old residing in Mumbai,India.I am computer engineer .I have worked for 4 years and I have completed MBA in May 2011 in Marketing.I didn't get job from college.Seven years back I was fired from an IT company for doing 8 programs out of 10.Sir one and half year back while studying at night I got thought as "U r going to fail .U can not do any thing in ur life as u failed 7 years back.Since then these thoughts came frequently and I got disturbed while studying ,college activities and at home too.These thoughts started coming frequently and they become " Why did u fail?U can not accept ur failures.U r a negative thinker.Ur world's biggest looser.Devil has selected you as first person on earth to spread fear and negativity. Ur all friends have progressed in their lives.They r successful nad u r big symbol of failure.U r a negative thinker.U have not worked in IT for 4 years.U have not given MBA exams.U have not given group Discussion and personal Interview.U r not an MBA.U r just a looser a failure of past.U have to accept negativity of all people.Any task u can not do since u have failed 7 years ago and u r a negative thinker.Then it laughs as Ha Ha Ha.I am ur god .I will go after ur death.Medicines will not work for u.U r world's biggest negative thinker.U can not think positive at all.Once failed life ended.Its 2005 the year in which u failed .U have been just fired from office.Its not year 2011.Just remember your failure.Every thing except ur failure is true and rest all thinks are false.U r eunuch.U r mother fucker.U r sister fucker.U can not earn money.
Sir, these thoughts cycle repeats through out day.It disturbs whike reading or doing any activity.I have taken 16 ECTS since one and half year.I have changed 3 doctors since then .I have shown to DR K P Dave ,Dr Nilesh Shah ,head of psychiatry at Sion Municipal hospital,Dr Sachin Patkar,Dadar.They suggested its OCD plus Depression Right now I am taking medicines Fludac 80 mg and Clonil 150 mg. I was admitted in Sion hospital for 11 days.
I don't know sir,what to do where I am doing mistakes.I am tired of these things.Sir,is it curable?I can do any thing for this.My whole life is disturbed because of this things.Whole cycle gets repeated through out the day.Small things become big .
Sir,Please suggest.