Suggest Treatment For Anger Disorder

i feel like ive so many mixed emotions running through my body its confusing, like sometimes ive got so much hate an anger inside of me i feel like im literally about to blow, ma family an friends are sayin sometimes im really horrible to be around, i forget things i say when im angry its like i cant controll what i say,... sometimes i can be right nice an easy to get along with, or im jus right emotional an often feel suicidle an worthless etc.. i feel like im sometimes a different person, i dont feel like me myself, im forgetting things, i feel paranoid to go place i feel everyone's against me an plottin agains me or setting me up, my moods are always changing an its like i controll them, im startin to seriously struggle with my day to dayy activites im finding it hard to focus and concentrate