Hi, I m a 19 year old female and I am struggling with bulimia. Let me start from the beginning: I was always thin, I was never overweight. But I got self-conscious because I was eating more than those girls that ate salads for dinner--and I didn t ever get fat or anything. But I got it into my head that my face was swollen and my cousin told me it s because of too much salt because salt retains water. After that, it was down hill from there. I first started out eating my meals and then vomiting it all out; then my stomach shrank so I barely ate anything at all, to the point where I was pretty frail. I hated that part the most. I m getting a little better; I eat more now and I have gained some weight. My only problem is that I am VERY afraid of sodium because I don t want my face to appear swollen --I like how my face looks when I eat little or no salt (I eat unsalted macaroni, mini wheats cereal with no sodium, etc... food that has very little salt or none at all). If I eat something salty, I still always throw it up. That s my problem. It s been almost a year and a half now too. There is one thing that really, really worries me. I haven t had my period for this entire time. I was never one who had a regular period... it would sometimes come in 28 days, sometimes in 38 days; sometimes it would be in the middle of the month, sometimes in the beginning or end of the month. However, I m really scared that I have done something to my body. The thing I am most scared about is that I am infertile now... can that happen?? I love kids, and I would love to have some someday when I get married (I m saving myself for marriage). I cannot afford therapy as my parents are in major debt (and I m a full time college student and work part time). However, I believe I am getting better. I need some facts though... I am REALLY scared about my woman problems. I still want to be healthy and I still want to have kids someday. Please, I beg you, help me out. Is it possible for me to have kids still one day? What can I do to help myself get over this bulimia and sodium phobia? Thanks for taking the time to read this; I really appreciate it. A