Hi, I read your query and can understand your concern regarding your symptoms. You might be having depersonalisation and derealisation symptoms. But to call it a disorder as such will need more detailed evaluation as it can happen in multiple conditions like anxiety or mood disorders as well. I would advise you to consult a psychiatrist for the same. Anti-anxiety medications like selective serotonin reuptake inhibitors might be of help. Lamotrigine has also been found effective for depersonalisation/ derealisation. However, the best treatment will be cognitive behavior therapy where regular sessions will be taken focusing on your symptoms, relaxation will be taught and efforts will be made to change your cognitive errors. Hope this information was helpful. Best wishes.