I was badly bullied during my last second last year at high school, at the same time my gran was terminally. The people who were bullying me had at one point been my friends. They knew exactly what to say, what buttons to press. I suffered from depression and bulimia as a result of this. I left my last year early to focus on getting better. More recently I had a similar issue at college. Now I feel like I can't trust anyone, I hate social situations, am more and more shutting myself away. I started University on Monday and have been having panic attacks every morning. I get myself so worked up that I can't trust anybody, that people just hurt you, but at the same time I do want to make friends and of course I want to succeed in my course. I have hardly eaten anything this week. I'm so confused and muddled and don't know how to control my feelings, how to stop the panic attacks. I don't know what to do.